Happy Thanksgiving or Do I Feel Like 200?

This was originally supposed to have been posted on Thanksgiving....better late than never I guess. I worked 5am to 1:30pm on Thanksgiving Day. When I go in at 5am, the first thing I must do is put the delivery away. Clumsy me, while I was carrying a 60 pound of spareribs, I tripped over a pallet and twisted my back. While I was trying not to fall, something in my back snapped. With a lot of caution, I finished my shift on Thursday. I went home that afternoon and ate my Thanksgiving dinner of cheddar brats and stuffing (Hey, it was quick and easy, it was all I could do to stand up to cook this.) After lunch and taking care of the pets, I laid down on the couch. I watched a few movies (luckily I thought of putting movies into the DVD player before laying down). I dozed off during the movies. I woke up a few hours later because the dog was wanting to go outside. OH NO, I couldn't get up! I spent probably an hour trying to just sit up, but I couldn't do that without a lot pain. I got the bright idea that if I rolled off of the couch (rolling wasn't any easier than sitting up) that I could try and sit up that way. Unfortunately, when I started to roll over, I fell onto the floor. Now I was laying down on the floor and still unable to get up. I spent probably 15 minutes trying to sit up, but I was unable to do anything, because the coffee table was in my way. Luckily I could reach the phone and call Douglass. He came over, helped me up and took me to the emergency room.

Today I had to go to another doctor (for workman's comp). Even though I feel much, much better, this doctor put worse restrictions on me than the first one did.

So the original post was going to be about being thankful. This past year has been a roller coaster of a ride. I started off the year with being single for the first time in 8 years. I moved into an apartment and was living by myself for the first time in 20 years. That was an eye-opener. Thank goodness I still have enough dishes to have a dinner party for over 50 people. The good thing about moving out, the ex and I have become much better friends. I feel like I can open up to him much easier now. I think he is more open with me now. Too bad we weren't that way when we were together. Over the summer I fell and hurt my back (deja vu). I had many months of back pain. I finally found a doctor who gave me shots directly into my spine that corrected the problem. Shortly after that, I got fired from my job. The company had been moving in a new direction, they started by firing all of the management team at the store. This just threw me into a huge depression.

2 months later, and after fighting, I finally was employed again! This is a step into the right direction, but the depression is still there. It seems like everything is a battle right now. I am getting the run around from the unemployment office. I have yet to receive any payments. I am still single, which is mixed emotions. I wish things had worked out better between me and the ex. I still have feelings for him, but I have no idea how he feels. My job isn't my ideal job. I am getting paid right under what I was making before (which is very good) and within a year I should be making more. My bills have piled up from the unemployment. Those unemployment benefits would really help with those!

With all of that, I am very thankful. I am thankful that Douglass and I are still talking. He means the world to me and I hope he realizes that. I have a job which is very good. I know a lot of people are jobless during these bad economic times. I do have some family left. I have my grandparents (from my mom's side) and my sister and her family. And I also have my new Fiesta family. There are quite a few special people that I have met through the Fiesta message board! I am also very thankful for the readers of this blog. I haven't been posting nearly as much (thanks to the new job and the back problems) but this is post #200!!! It took me 2 years for the first 100 posts and only 3 months for the next 100 posts. So thanks to all of you! And here is to the next 200 posts!